So, my name is Jacque (pronounced like Jackie)

According to your little BMI calculator, I'm 31.02%

Growing up, I was between 130-140lbs. After the birth of my first child, I was wearing mens' size 27 jeans weeks after birth. I was slender and fit. As I grew older, I stopped being active. The computer took the place of outside activity. Work got in the way of fun things like rollerblading and horseback riding. My husband and I divorced in 2003. One of the things he told me on the way out the door was "It's okay, you got fat anyways." (His jab at me because I didn't want to work things out with him.) I was 150 pounds. Over the next 3 years I put on another 10 pounds as a college student/mom/full time employee. I was doing horribly. I could barely keep the bills paid and food on the table. I HATED my major and dropped out of school. I decided that I was going to move and started working on a horse race track. There I lost 30 pounds in a few months. I looked FANTASTIC! The meet ended and I didn't want to move yet again just to keep a job that I loved but barely paid the bills. I was RARELY home and when I was I was so tired it was like I wasn't there at all. I had a long conversation with my mom, moved the kids in with her, and in 2006 moved to coastal NC in search of a better job and life for my children and I.
Being 5'8 and 130 pounds has it's perks in a military town. I got asked out by so many guys it was actually pretty pathetic. I made some great friends, and I finally started dating. I met my husband in 2007 and we were married in 2008.
Apparently I cook too well because we BOTH have some weight to lose. Both of my kids are as skinny as I was growing up, but, my husband and I have a few pounds to lose. I'm now at my lifes heaviest, just under 200 pounds.
Two weeks ago, I started having chest pains. I thought I was going to die of a heart attack. That's a very sensitive subject for me because almost a year to the day before all of my chest pains started my first true love died of a heart attack at the age of 31 years old. The age I am right now. I was truly scared. I didn't want to die. It turns out that it was NOT a heart attack, but the ER Doctor did see something in my EKG and told me to follow up with a Cardiologist. So, that's where I am right now. I go in for a stress test and an echo on my heart today. I'm hopefully going to hear some good news and will get cleared for exercise today! I've pretty much cut out all soda, with an occasional one here and there (a few times a month) My husband and I are going to start a Flexitarian diet, meaning we are going to cut out MOST of the meat in our diet.
I can't wait to meet others on their journey!

The doctor gave me the all clear!! Monday starts Jillian Michaels!!

WOW. Bad week. I am starving. yikes. I had mickey d's and roast beef sandwiches.. uggg... I even made brownies. oh crow!!!!!!